Life......

I have not written in so long that I dont even know where to start. Hunny finally moved in back in June, my landlord passed away, I went to philly, big camp weekend just passed and we are moving.......home.

Yes that is right I am moving home. Right before I left for Philly my dad called and wanted to talk. Told me that Jeff and I needed to sit down and talk about some stuff. Then he popped the question......Do you want to rent my house? Hell yeah. So now Hunny and I are moving into an 8 Room house with a yard and a quiet neighborhood. Oh how sweet it is..... I am so excited to be going home. That is where I grew up so it makes it that much better that I can raise my kid in the same situation. It actually scared the hell out of me at first, hunny and I were having a little bit of a hard time adjusting to living together. We have definatley had our share of disagreements and a few down right nasty fights. But things got so much better in the last few weeks. I think we just needed to lay it all out there and then pick up the pieces and put them away right this time.

As most of you know moving is a very stressful thing so we are taking our time. Plus there is so much shit in that house that needs to be cleaned out. But none the less I am still on cloud 9 knowing I am going home very soon.

On another note cheering has started and that is also kinda stressful. But I will get through it. Philly was fun, camp was better and life is fantastic.

12 Days and counting

We leave for Disney in 12 days. I am so excited but nervous at the same time. Jeff is staying home to organize and get things in order for him to start moving stuff in. *Sigh*. Things are still going good but I swear he has OCD. He can not sit still and nothing can be out of place. This could cause many issues because I am not quite as organized as I should be. He found a phone bill in the closet. Who knows why it was in there but it was. I guess sometimes I can be a scatter brain.

I have had it with the friggin DOR. They are pissing me off something fierce at this point. They intercepted my ex's taxes awhile ago and I still have yet to recieve them. They keep saying that they are coming, cannot tell me when or how much but they are coming. So today I called yet again, OOPS those should have gone out 2 weeks ago, it must have slipped throught the cracks. WTF?????Slipped through the cracks????? If I owed them money they would be camping on my fucking doorstep. I want to scream at them but that is not going to help get the money any faster. So lucky for us I put my money for the trip away long ago but I have yet to go out and buy clothes, since my fat ass wont fit into any summer clothes from last year yet. Ugh. I will manage to get through it though. It just makes me mad.

Anyways nothing else is new other than it is going to be a crazy 12 days, I have to work this weekend and I have to have 2 birthday partys for my daughter, One for friends and one for family. But with that aside I still have to find time to go shopping for clothes for me and bake 2 cakes and shop for party food. I am glad she is an only child because right now I could not handle caring for 2 kids.


Jeff informed us the other day that we will be having a boy in about three years,
all I could say was ha ha ha yeah right......lol.

Things are finally falling into place.

With Jeff that is. Things are going great. We have decided that we are going to move in together soon. Probably by the end of summer. Which is exciting but scary. I have not lived with anyone in 5 years and I am sure he hasnt lived with anyone in atleast 8 years. So it is going to be a learning process. Things are in process as we speak. Cleaning and organizing so that the move is a smooth transition for him. Eliminating useless stuff I have collected over the years, or at least putting it in boxes to store.

There are definatley things that we need to discuss further but we still have time for that. I am not saying that our relationship is perfect, noones is, but it is close. We have made rules in our relationship and he knows that if he crosses me I will be gone. If we want this to work we need to compromise and set ground rules.

We did not see eye to eye on the family situation but I guess we may never. His family is not supportive of us, partly because I sent his mother an email telling her some stuff when we broke up the first time. Well his family needed to realize that he is not perfect and it was not only me that had issues at that point. They needed an eyeopener to see what he was really putting me through. And to this day I do not regret it. Like I told him "they do not have to like me, nor do I have to like them, I am not dating them, I just have to be civil and cordial when they are around." But by all means I am not going to be fake.

So anyways that is about what is going on in my life, busy with getting things set for our future.

Only 4 more weeks to DISNEY.

Glad the week has finally come to an end....

This past week has sucked so bad. Exactly one week ago today I was standing in the ER with my best friend watching her mother fight for her life. Sadly her mother did not make it and she was waked on thursday. I have known my friend for 23 years and I know the history of her and her family as if it were my own. I cannot imagine losing either of my parents at such a young age. As sad as it is, I know that her daughters made the right desicions and I know that she is now watching over them and her grandchildren.

How I love thee.....

Omg, like I said the other day, Jeff seems to surprise me more and more everyday. Last night he came over for Valentines day. We were planning on going to dinner so we decided to do the gifts first. I got him a talking baby Stewie (Family Guy) and a rolling Stones T-Shirt. Well he got my daughter a big headed dog that looks just like our dog. Then it was my turn. Do you know he drove 45 minutes one way to go to Build-A-Bear to make me a bear. It has a t-shirt that says Love is the stuff inside and little heart boxer shorts. And when you squeeze his left hand he says I love you! I thought that was so sweet. The card was not one that I expected from him but he cried when he read the card I gave him. He is here now so I got to go.

What could it be?

When I called Hunny tonight he said that he got me a present, I have tried to guess but he is not giving in. I know it is something I cannot wear, it is not blue, it is not disney, he drove 45 minutes to find it, it is not breakable and it is something he knows I will like. He did ask me if he could meet me at lunch tomorrow and give it to me. I told him no.....lol. I dont want to be around a bunch of people, I want it to be speacil. I can't even imagine what it is. I was hoping jewlry but I guess not. Who knows he could be lying to me.

Today makes a year that he left me the first time. In the shower this morning I got alittle upset but it passed. I cannot dwell on the past and I am not going to let it ruin my day. I know we both made mistakes and we have learned from them. Although he told me this weekend that we will further our relationship in 2008. I am not waiting another 2 years to further our relationship. I am not asking for marriage but I am looking for a commitment more than the one he gave me the first time. If he cannot suck it up and figure this out than I am not going to hang around for somedays anymore. I want more than that. And he is the one I want to be with. He says that I am the one that he wants to be with too. But I want him to work towards a life together. Who knows I am not going to worry about it tonight. I just cant wait to find out what he got me tomorrow.

Winter Wonderland!!!

Maybe for someone who likes snow it is a Winter wonderland. I myself hate snow and last night we got over a foot dropped on us. But I was thrilled because Jeff was here when it started and when we woke up this morning he decided it was best to stay put. He has been here since Friday and it was a very nice weekend for us. We discussed our future and what we both want. And even though we do not see eye to eye all the time we both agree we have to compromise. On Saturday I went out for awhile while he was napping from working Friday night. And then at night I went back out to get his Valentines present. He says that he doesnt have to go shopping for mine which scares me just alittle. And then tonight before he left to go to work it got alittle emotional, we were talking about things and he started to cry. I asked him why he was sad and he said he was not sad he was crying because he is happy that we are back together. In turn that made me cry. I am not sure what went on with him for the past year but whatever it was it made him a new man. And I love him even more for it. I think we both grew alot this past year and it was probably for the best that we had time apart. Tomorrow will make it 1 year ago that he left and when we talked about it today I was emotional and started to think about it. I dont want to relive the time we had before, I only want to move forward. I just hope he knows how much I love him.